When work finished, and all student questions about homework had been answered I took a few moments to watch a bunch stuff on YouTube to relax and wind down. Actually, my student sent me a link to a Bruce Lee interview clip that he really liked. He had being mimicking it and he was able to recite in a near perfect imitation of Bruce Lee’s accent. Of course, Bruce Lee is pretty amazing, so I watched the video clip. Then I watched some more. Then I looked out the window and it was dark outside.
As you can imagine, this wasn’t my plan for today. I planned to Zwift, do some planks, and maybe write something. Instead I got sucked into the vortex that is YouTube. By the time I was done, I was starting to feel a bit hungry and thought about taking a rest day. I was really tempted. I started telling myself those excuses like:
- You deserve a day off.
- One day off won’t kill you.
- You’ll probably still meet your goals.
- Maybe you don’t have it today.
Instead of listening to these crappy excuses, I got on the bike and did some Zwift time. I know I can take the day off, but I think a day off should be when you want a day off, not when you start making excuses.
I was okay on the bike. I am still getting used to the trainer. I am riding stronger and not blowing up right out of the gate like I did on the first day. There is a definite learning curve and I think I am following it well. I feel stronger and my time and distance are improving.
Dinner came and went–yes, I cleared up some leftovers from the fridge. I made sure to add some more vegetables to it as well. It tasted good and certainly filled up my stomach–which by that time was raging. I didn’t eat till I was full, but I wasn’t starving any longer.
I considered giving myself a treat. I have some ice-cream in the freezer. Those voices that sounded eerily similar to the ones that wanted to give me an excuse to not exercise today started talking to me again. They said;
- You deserve a treat.
- You’ve been good.
- A little ice-cream won’t hurt you.
- You paid for it. You can eat it.
- If you want ice-cream have it.
And there is some truth in those arguments. I do deserve it. I have been good for the past couple of weeks. It won’t hurt me. I don’t need to deny myself everything. Complete denial of anything good is not the answer.
I started to think about it. I promised my girlfriend that I had bought the ice-cream for us to eat together–I don’t think it was a lie, but it certainly helped me justify buying it in the first place. I also had just eaten dinner and knew I should wait to see how full I felt. It takes a bit of time after eating for your body to react. I also know that I do not have enough self-control yet to have a couple of spoonfuls of ice-cream and then relegate it to the freezer. Once I open it, I will probably eat half of it, if not more.
Later, I weighed myself and realized that I had lost some kilograms. My first thought was not happiness, but that I would have to change my profile weight on Zwift. After that moment passed, I felt better. I know that these are the easy kilograms. I have lost them before and gained them back again. However, it still felt pretty good.
Later still, my girlfriend commented that my face looked thinner. Of course I smiled and told her how my plans were going. She said she was proud of me. Obviously, this is Today’s Perfect Moment. Well, either that, or the weight loss. Since the two are so closely bound together, I am not going to quibble.
I am going to keep keep exercising and eating better.